If you’re anything like me, you may occasionally be a little bit hard on yourself. Even when things are going very well in my life, I can find my ever working brain comparing myself to others.
Whatever it may be, “That person is younger than me and look how much farther in their career they are.” Or, “Look at her house, wow, they’re so rich, I don’t know if I’ll ever have a house that big/nice/clean, etc.” Point is, there’s always something.
I can always feel behind, like I’ll never catch up. Like I’m failing at life, somehow.
I don’t ever want to fail or stumble and fall on my face, but I do all of the time. We can’t experience success without failure and we can’t experience light without darkness, which kind of sucks, if you ask me.
Still, I get the concept that if you held a candle up to the blazing sun, the glow of the candle’s light would be lost, it would be indistinguishable from the rest of the fire. But light a candle in the dark of night and you can experience its glow and unique flame.
Such is the case with our own light, we need the dark of the night sky for our stars to glow brightly. We need the dark to serve our true purpose, which is love and which is light.
I want everything good now, to happen yesterday. But when I was younger, in my 20′s, I used to worry about when I would have a baby. I had a baby at age 37 and it was right on time.
Looking back, I thought, “Why did I waste any time worrying about when I would have a baby?” It was fine, it happened right when it was supposed to happen.
I’m finding that all of my life is like that. It happens when it’s meant to happen, I can only do my part and do my best putting one foot in front of the other, follow my dreams and listen to my gut instincts, but then I have to accept where my life is, right in this moment. Even when I stumble and fall. On my face. Again and again. *sigh*
This is one of my favorite quotes of all time, by Samuel Beckett.
So I am going to try to fail better.
And even with its challenges, life is still beautiful, especially when I get to share the warmth and glow of your light.